Each day.. a new Begining

So I have been reading through my old posts.. and aparently I posted that the wedding is to take place in June 2006.. lol well obviously since I'm not married yet.. the wedding is actualy taking place in June 2007.

Although I almost had to cancel the wedding. :(

At first, i put off the wedding plans for a little while because Jake's Grandmother passed away.
He's spending more time with his brothers lately, I think that helps. Once in a while I see the sadness in his eyes and we have an understanding that no matter what I'm doing, if he needs a hug he just lets me know and we hug for a few minutes.

Shortly after that my mother keeps bugging me about my plans, wondering what i am doing. Ofcourse some of my plans are in my Father's hands... so i've called him, and bugged him until plans were set up.

Albert (a friend of his) will be roasting a beef shoulder for us, for the "recieption/party" afterwards.. my parents are considering putting up a tent at our place by the pool for that evening.

and the largest obsitcle is work..

*sigh* My sister has a baby shower on the 29th, and I just wanted a few days off to go to the baby shower and to meet with the Reverand and make a few plans for the wedding.. but work has decided that they are understaffed (they just did a batch of hiring btw) and that i should try swapping my shifts.. so i went at that.. however they have so many restrictions.. i can only swap a shift if it will be durring the same pay week, i can only give away a shift to a part timer who won't be going over 44 hrs for the week, and i'm only aloud to do one shift a week...

So i've been told all the shifts i had swapped were denied...

My Reverand wants to meet with Jake and I twice before the wedding.. and that has now become impossile... so i have been going through the fear of having to cancel the wedding.

Luckily I talked to my Reverand and she is going to attempt to make an internet couples counceling program for us.

So I have to accept that the company I work for.. alows me to have as much time off as needed while I'm sick, but say to bad, so sad when it comes to the wedding..

I'll post more soon..

I don't know if it the heat, the lack of sleep or the long hours at work.

But today was suppose to be a special day for us. Or atleast in my mind. I guess we were traveling on diffrent tracks all day.

We've just had one argument after another.. it started with something stupid. i wanted to spend the day together and celibrate our anniversary.. yes i know i'm a little late for that becuase our anniversary was on the 26th, but today was the day we had off together.

I wanted us to maybe hang out, make breakfast together, go to the mall, bring home some take out and then relax and do what ever we would do.

Instead.. I let him sleep in. Mistake number 1.

then i got on the computer instead of making breakfast for him.. Mistake number 2.

then when i asked him to make it with me.. and i ended up making it all, i complained. Mistake number 3.

Next i took him litteraly when he suggested I stay home and do house chores while he goes to the mall. Mistake number 4.

Are you seeing a trend? my biggest mistake was expecting it was going to be a nice day.
*sigh* Now i'm sleeping on the couch, he's in bed.
Just before going to bed he gives me this nice.. soft kiss... and I ask.. why couldn't you be like that all day? He ignores me and goes to bed. When I ask again.. his answer is I thought you didn't want to fight.

Part of me was picking a fight.. part of me honestly wants to know why he wasn't all soft and romantic all day? That's what we planned lastnight before falling asleep in each others arms.

Through out my many years.. I have played many games.
Quite a few online actualy..
Back in Highschool there was the BBS game I played.. I can't remember the name of it, but you could only log on once a day per character to use upto so many "moves"
It was awesome because I lived out in the country and couldn't hang out with friends as much as I would have liked to.

Later in the years I went from chat boards to roll playing rooms.. until I ended up in www.Rag.com

I use to play that non stop! took me forever to level up compaired to some of the other players.. but i was there more for interaction.

I lost touch over the years, and this week I've been on 3 times already! and i'm loving every second of it. *sigh* i do miss many of my friends on there that will never show up again....

So as it stands.. the "Save the Date" cards are still sitting in my apartment..
Jake would like for us to go to his cousin's wedding at the end of July to give him a feel for what he would feel comfortable with.. so I'm holding off on them, just slightly.. although I do have a tone! a tone! of them to finish.. or so it seems...

Reception? lol ok so we say no reception.. but heeh you see we are going to have a get together.. so yah.. technicaly it's a reception.. just don't tell Jake that. Ok?

On Father's day.. I did something special.. I called my dad and discussed the wedding with him a bit. Now I have involved most of the family *cough - crystal - cough* yeah.. I should involve my sister, but she's never liked me and I'm kind of tired of trying to win her over.. so the winny the pooh babyset i'm mailing her is good enough for now.. ofcourse I'm holding off on that until I send out the Save the Dates so that I can mail hers with the Baby gift.

Back to the Father's day discussion... I asked him how much it would cost to buy some beef and have a nice BBQ.. he suggested something I haddn't considered.. that Albert roast a beef Hip for us (yes a HUGE chunk of cow!) Mmmmmmm now that did sound like a good idea... so I asked him to look into that for me.

*giggles* ok so maybe I'm getting a touch excited about this! :D

Another Father's day note.. I haven't mailed it yet (because I suck) but I got him a Pink Panther CD with 24 animated episodes! *giggle* (yes I'm giggling again!) I got it for sentimental reasons.. to this day I have fond memories of my Dad comming home from the barn at lunch and he and I sitting down in the living room, watching Pink Panther on CBC (I believe) I'm not sure if he will understand how much this gift means to me.. but I hope he does. I don't do enough to show my parents I care.

Today i had this lady tell me she was fed up with "our company".. last time she had to have someone go out to her home she found the tech taking a dump in her bathroom!

Jake and I started laughing.... I said atleast he wasn't taking a dump in the middle of the living room....

lol

Then Jake said.. or worse could you imagine coming home to find a tech taking a shower? You'd be like "WTF!?"

Which was followed by...

"or sleeping in your bed!?.... and 'playing' EWWWW!!! and in your underwear drawer!!!!

EWWWWWWW!

Could you imagine?

I had an amazing dream about a kids "show", more of a play realy.

some how there was a mecanism that was a light with a rope or a magnet attached to it... it looked like a little fae.. then there was this paper dragon.. and somehow once the fae shot out through the audience and landded on the wall the "magician" or performer.. was able to make the dragon go after it.. so it looked like the dragon was flying over the audience. It was realy neat because he would actualy get the kids involved.. making them believe that they were controlling the dragon, telling it where to go...


Then i woke up.. to this migrain. Thismorning i would have said it was fairly bad.. but by the afternoon i soon realized that it was quite minor.. because after laying back down with my eyes covered and a cool cloth on my forhead i woke up to a MAJOR migrain.. one that hurt so bad i started crying and cuddled up into a ball.. but shortly after stopped crying, only because it hurt too much to cry...

Thankfuly it's a dull headache now... but i worry about how it's going to be when i wake up tomorrow.. normaly a headache like this lasts about 2 days......

On a good note.. my camera is working again.. an update in Windows actualy prevented it from recognizing my camera when it was plugged in, and a new update 2 days later had it working again. So now i'm going to go take more pictures this week. I might go for a nice long walk on Wednesday up into the hills around here.. the green in the trees keeps calling out to me, and for some reason I just never find myself going out that way.......

It's official! June 30th, 2006 has been booked in with my family Church..

Wedding bells will be ringing..

A few issues have come up.. ofcourse. And yes it is a good thing that I have a year to make sure that I have enough time to get the details together.

1. The dress. I've found a style that I like, and will make me feel comfortable with my psoriasis (although I'm seeing a new specialist so hopefuly it won't be as much of a concern). The dress that I have found is online.. but I'm going to see how much it would cost for one similar around here.

2. The guest list. We had originaly wanted to have just our parents and brothers and sisters. My mother has pointed out how disapointed my Aunts would be.. I have to discuss that with Jake.

3. The Hotel rooms.. Who all is coming from Sudbury? We'll have to figgure that one out. I was expecting that anyway.

4. The Restraunt afterwards. I have to take a look at what is available in Perth.

5. Travel arrangements. How will Jake and I get there? and how long will we be staying? There will be atleast two other couples staying with us in Ottawa for Canada Day.

and I could keep going.. there is the Wedding cake, the flowers, Pictures..

All in all, it's getting bigger than I would like. *sigh*

Any suggestions? lol

Last time there was a shift bid I thought everyone was just being whinny... The way I looke at it, they had a job.. they were getting alright hours.. they should shut up and take it.

*sigh* I sooooo want to tell myself to shut up and take it.. lol

I'm working evenings.. and to be honest, the hours aren't bad, the job isn't horrible... but what I don't like.. for some reason they have more of us working durring that first hour of my shift than there are seats! So I can't sit near Jake or Carolyn.. Can't find Sharron.. and I was stuck on a suck ass computer for half my shift! Oh yeah and did I mention that the night is buisyer than days? and the people who call in actualy have time to do the steps with you so there goes my time.. shot right up lastnight.. damn it!

LOL do i sound like a huge complainer or what?

Good side of all of this.. I can enjoy my days alot more than I thought... I was able to watch Daily Planet again.. (I enjoy my science shows) and garden, and get my housework done..

Tuesday is my 1st Friday.. and Saturday is my second. Working Evenings makes it feel like I get two weekends because I have 2 days of doing almost nothing! :)

Well off to do some chores.. and to play in my garden......

I have been recruited once more to set up a fish tank.

This one is a bit of a dreamy one for me. Mostly becuase of the size. 70gal of fishy goodness!

Ofcourse I get to start with the hard part... it's been stored in a partialy finish basement durring repairs... needless to say it is full of dust! So I'm disinfecting it all with vinigar and boiling water. Tonight I'm doing the final rince and refill of clean rocks and the pump so that we can let it run and prepare it for fish.

We are likely going for sleek sharks, silver dollars, a pair of discus and I'm going to use neons for starter fish. Anyone have any other suggestions? It's going to be used as a show tank to help sell the newly renovated house. I'll include pics later.

Thankyou to everyone we are recieving congradulations from.. I know both Jake and I appreciate it so much! :)

On another wounderful note.. My plants have finaly arrived!
Jake and I bought flowers for both of our Mother's for Mother's day and felt awful when we were told that the end of May is the earliest we would recieve them.. I got my mother some Hostas, a yellow rose bush and a few other bulbs...

For Jake's mother.. well she doesn't normaly plant flowers so we got her a Beginners guide, and a full garden with directions on which plant should be planted where... we hope to go out and visit with them lots this summer and this is just one more excuse to do it :)

For me.. a herb garden collection.. and a few other little nick nacks.. this year i'm growing my Morning glories again, in addition a clementis.. to grow over the arches I put up.

I'll have to post some pictures later... I have to go and get the finishing touches for my balconey.

Night

Jake and I have decided to make our relationship official.. :) Meaning we are going down the isle.

June 30th, 2007. We will be getting married in my home town of Balderson in the family church. It will be small, and intimate! We are going to have our families at the church, and inviting family and friends to meet with us in a restaurant after. We don't want a showy reception.

We have chosen to go with a soft blue, white and cream for the colours. Flowers still undecided.

We have many things to organize, as of yet..

I'll likely update more to follow the progress and count down to the big day. :)

I haven't posted about this yet mostly becuase i've been soooooo buisy lately.

A month ago the Copy Lead at our store quit. In a way this is bad because I've been fond of her.. she did the administrative work and I did the creative work.

So I applied.. and to my delight I got it! I am now the Copy Lead at our store. Translation.. JR Management. I'm very hapy. I have alot of work to get use to and last weekend I flew off to Toronto for the Copy Symposium and I was able to learn quite a bit, and now I will have figgure out how to send that information onto the other girls.

Everyone agrees that my bigges weakness is my authority with the other girls. Any suggestions? lol

Anyway, life is good!

Talk to you all later.

In my opinion I've had something amaing happen.

Way back when I set up my fish tank I decided to pick out an angel fish. When I got to the store I saw two that were swimming together and away from the rest. I couldn't buy just one of them and leave the other all alone so i bought both.

The dark "lace" desinged one, we named Dhark.
The light "striped" one, we named Spirit.

I just came home from a confrance last Saturday night.. when I came home it looked like the algee was getting out of hand or something.. but when I woke up Sunday morning I looked closer....

Aparently my Angel fish are male and female and were a mated pare from before I purchased them.. rare since they were babies then.

I've een watching them over time, the babies were already hatched, I thought they all fell to the bottom and died, but tonight I discovered that they lived and the angel fish have been taking great care of them.. another kind of rare thing because they quite often eat their first batch! :)

It was kind of neet.. I had some of the babies in a seperate container to try and raise tem on my own, but today I put them back into the big tank and it was soo cool! The parents collected the babies by sucking them into their mouth and then put them on the leaf with the other babies they were already protecting! They even searched the rocks for about an hour to make sure they didn't miss any of the babies.

You had to see it.

I had another dream lastnight.

This time what I remember.. my sister and her fiancee were living in an apartment building that had a job or something like that, posted on thier website (the apartment's website) and my sisiter was freaking on it.. so while i was sitting with her on a school bus she had hired someone to hack the website so that it would't apear when people logged on. Just as the guy got off the bus the landlord sticks her nose outside the building door asking me if anyone had hired anyone called the "doctor" to "fix" the webpage and I told her no.. then I turned to my sister saying.. see I protected you there.. then we got out of the taxi/limo. (Yes i know we were on a bus.. but hey.. that's the way things go. right?)

I'll update interpritations later

Apartment building: A part of the total house of self. Avoiding rivals.
Job posting: Work on fulfillment. Frustrated or satisfied with life.
school bus: Discipline. Instruction. You have the skills to resolve a problem.
web page: Complex network. Delicacy. You are feeling traped.
doctor: Mastery over many things. Work on healing. Ready to be healed.
taxi:
limo: Luxurious power. Ready to be conspicuous in my expression of power.
sister: Family. Fellowship. Fortune .You are aware of your surroundings.

I had another odd dream..

I dreamed that i was in the hotel room at the confrance this weekend. A blue rattle snake tried to attack my legs while my manager was sleeping....

so I took a few key words to see what it means

Snake: A snake ready to strike means treachery from one you least expected.

Legs: Is associated with support and movement. Joy and happiness.

Blue: This dream denotes a great source of inner peace and a symbol of contentment.

Hotel: Transitional aspect of identity. Success of hopes. Long journey.

so yesterday i sprained my wrist, i stopped in at the walk in clinic after work and they say go get it x-rayed. ofcourse i'm not waiting at the emerge for hours on end over that.. so i'll wait till monday.
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then jake wanted to treat me to dinner. when we came out someone cut through the bike lock and stole our bike. He feels guilty because he rode it there; but I told him I left it there many times and it could happen to anyone.

so i'm not sure if it's even worth calling the cops to report it.
*hugs* feel better jake. stop stressing. it's nothing we can't replace.

So Jake and I were fooling around yesterday... water fight in the apt to be exact ...and what had we always been told as kids? "Somebody's gonna get hurt!"

lol

So We ended up spraining my wrist.

So a week of vacation: ( to be summed up )

My cat is 2 years old now! Happy Birthday Cookie!

Yeah I know i'm terribly bored and avoiding the fact that I should be cleaning.

Thanks to staceid for these memes.
( Starwars memes )